so depression makes life fun, and while i have not been here in awhile I have been stressing out alot at home and trying not to kill family and friends, with emotions rampant, its hard to fight the urge to strangle or stab them to death just because I want to. The only reason I don't is cause I know I would never get away with it, wish I could though, then maybe people would leave me alone to my thoughts and feelings, instead I have to hold things in and bite my tonuge , anyways its been since feb since i wrote anything so theres a update